Most people are gearing up to spend tomorrow with friends and family … celebrating Easter with the traditional ham or leg of lamb, searching for eggs, tearing into colorful Easter baskets …
We will attend the sunrise service at church, of course. There is a brunch and then a regular service. We’ll be there. And then everyone will skitter off …
We’ll go home. Just us. No extended family. No friends. No celebration.
At least not the kind that comes to mind – my mind. In my mind, we just aren’t like other people. Other families. Normal families.
I know, we CAN make our own traditions and we will. But at these times, when it seems that everyone has somewhere to go and people to be with … I feel at a loss. I wish for involved grandparents for my children. I wish for aunts and uncles that want to be around – or that we are willing to let come around. I wish for big gatherings, for chaos and laughter and a little tension and the combining and bonding of families. I wish for ladies cooking together in the kitchen and the men hanging out in the den. Children running wild, trying to steal a bite of this or that.
We just don’t have that. At all.
Today I am shedding my sadness here.
Today I will mourn for the traditional family that we don’t have – but only here.
Tomorrow I will be joyous.
Tomorrow I will dress my girls in sweet pastel dresses with lovely Easter bonnets (the 2 that will let me!).
Tomorrow I will make cute baskets for my girls (even though 2 of 4 don’t believe in it and think it lame – or whatever the current word is)
Tomorrow I will still cook a ham (even though I don’t care for it) and.
Tomorrow I will try to explain the real meaning of the day … I will tell my children that we are all we need and I will mean it … tomorrow.
Rise heart; thy Lord is risen. Sing his praise, Without delays…-George Herbert, stanza from "Easter"
Good Friday is the mirror held up by Jesus...it turns us to that cross and to his eyes and we hear these words, "Father forgive them for they know not what they do." -Robert G. Trache
Lead Me to Peace
Lead me from death to life,
from falsehood to truth.
Lead me from despair to hope,
from fear to trust.
Lead me from hate to love,
from war to peace.
Let peace fill my heart,
my world, my universe.