I am thankful today. For so many things.
I am grateful that I can skip a few days, even a week here ... and y'all keep comin' back to see how I am.
The sun is shining today and I realize how very much that affects my daily mood.
There is a *truce* in our household. This is a good thing. Things aren't fixed, but much has been realized ... revealed ... understood. We are movin' towards better things. I knew we would, but those moments of frustration and uncertainty can really wear on a gal.
I am so thankful that, as a young mother of 24, I never had the sort of media attention and expectations on me as the young starlets of today. You know, I probably would have been just as likely to curse and throw something at someone if they followed me around constantly ... just waiting for me to fail. I don't want to draw any more attention to this ... I just really think it sucks. There is an obvious problem - help is much needed ... but how many of us, if under the same harsh microscope would jump up and say how desperate we felt??
Having suffered from PPD, I know how hard it was for me to ask for help - when I was surrounded by people who were encouraging me ... it was like saying I was a failure - as a mother, a wife, a person.
Ok, that's all I am gonna say about that one because I am being thankful today -- this has just weighed heavily on my heart because I know that desperate feeling .... and, well remember I do tend to identify with those who suffer.
Another good thing -- the kids' school district decided to rearrange the calendar so that the kids do not have to attend school into July. We are all much relieved by this ... it would have made for a very short summer.
Manic Mom hit her 100 comments on her CONTEST post ... so now we can get back to the regular Manic Mom witty tête-à-tête's.
I have decided to give up one volunteer activity. I am going to spend the next month evaluating which activity I least enjoy - or find least rewarding. I am hoping that this will help ease the anxiety attacks that seem to be continuous.
Mr. Farmer has nearly - oh man I hedge even sayin' this - the small expansion project that he has been workin' on. (I won't mention how long ... I will not tell you how long ... I will not dwell on the how long!!!) Whew ... and am I ever glad. It seems I might be gettin' myself a brand.damn.new Washer before 2007 is over ... but shhhh don't mention it to Mr. Farmer, we don't wanna curse it or nothin'.
Well, I am sure that there is so much more that I am thankful for today ... my girls - let me tell you how sweet they are. They love each other so much - even when they are yellin' at one another ... there is love. AngelBaby has learned to say I yu you (insert name) and then grab a hold of your leg and squeeze as hard as she can ... pretty sweet stuff there ...
I am thankful that I could type this all out in less than 25 minutes and still pickup SweetiePie from school - on time ... as long as I stop right now ...
Energy and persistence alter all things. -Benjamin Franklin
The worst sin towards our fellow creatures is not to hate them, but to be indifferent to them; that's the essence of inhumanity.-George Bernard Shaw.
Therefore each of you must put off falsehood and speak truthfully to his neighbor, for we are all members of one body. Ephesians 4:25