Thursday, February 22, 2007

Thankful Thrusday

I am thankful today. For so many things.

I am grateful that I can skip a few days, even a week here ... and y'all keep comin' back to see how I am.

The sun is shining today and I realize how very much that affects my daily mood.

There is a *truce* in our household. This is a good thing. Things aren't fixed, but much has been realized ... revealed ... understood. We are movin' towards better things. I knew we would, but those moments of frustration and uncertainty can really wear on a gal.

I am so thankful that, as a young mother of 24, I never had the sort of media attention and expectations on me as the young starlets of today. You know, I probably would have been just as likely to curse and throw something at someone if they followed me around constantly ... just waiting for me to fail. I don't want to draw any more attention to this ... I just really think it sucks. There is an obvious problem - help is much needed ... but how many of us, if under the same harsh microscope would jump up and say how desperate we felt??

Having suffered from PPD, I know how hard it was for me to ask for help - when I was surrounded by people who were encouraging me ... it was like saying I was a failure - as a mother, a wife, a person.

Ok, that's all I am gonna say about that one because I am being thankful today -- this has just weighed heavily on my heart because I know that desperate feeling .... and, well remember I do tend to identify with those who suffer.

Another good thing -- the kids' school district decided to rearrange the calendar so that the kids do not have to attend school into July. We are all much relieved by this ... it would have made for a very short summer.

Manic Mom hit her 100 comments on her CONTEST post ... so now we can get back to the regular Manic Mom witty tête-à-tête's.

I have decided to give up one volunteer activity. I am going to spend the next month evaluating which activity I least enjoy - or find least rewarding. I am hoping that this will help ease the anxiety attacks that seem to be continuous.

Mr. Farmer has nearly - oh man I hedge even sayin' this - the small expansion project that he has been workin' on. (I won't mention how long ... I will not tell you how long ... I will not dwell on the how long!!!) Whew ... and am I ever glad. It seems I might be gettin' myself a brand.damn.new Washer before 2007 is over ... but shhhh don't mention it to Mr. Farmer, we don't wanna curse it or nothin'.

Well, I am sure that there is so much more that I am thankful for today ... my girls - let me tell you how sweet they are. They love each other so much - even when they are yellin' at one another ... there is love. AngelBaby has learned to say I yu you (insert name) and then grab a hold of your leg and squeeze as hard as she can ... pretty sweet stuff there ...

I am thankful that I could type this all out in less than 25 minutes and still pickup SweetiePie from school - on time ... as long as I stop right now ...

Bye y'all!

Frannie



Energy and persistence alter all things. -Benjamin Franklin


The worst sin towards our fellow creatures is not to hate them, but to be indifferent to them; that's the essence of inhumanity.-George Bernard Shaw.


Therefore each of you must put off falsehood and speak truthfully to his neighbor, for we are all members of one body. Ephesians 4:25

8 comments:

TTQ said...

Weird, we had a gratitude meeting with the place I volunteer on Tuesdays. It's important to be thankful for what you do have, even if it's things like running water, a roof over your head..whatever it's just good to grateful in order to stay humble

Frannie Farmer said...

You (they) are so right ... I am keenly aware that we (in my family) take those things for granted. Funny, about a week ago the girls and I decided to says prayers throughout the day (instead of just bed time) thanking God for all the we have - it has really made things ... lighter? better? I don't know the right word - except that it is a good thing.

T-girl said...

I agree, I am trying to remember through out the day those things I am grateful for- it makes it easier to get through those tough days too I think. I have even started doing a whole "one bad thing, two good things" mentality for when I am feeling down and frustrated. It really helps. Somedays are harder then others but it is helping!

I am glad things are going better for you and Mr. Farmer. I have been thinking of you but haven't had a chance to EM you.

Oh and about those starlets... if you are refering to the one I am in my blog... I think there is a lot more then Pregnancy Hormones going on there. I think that exasperated the problem but I think the real issue was a life that one was not properly prepared for and a family that did not support her in the way they should have, just kind of threw her to the wolves, let her go and didn't RAISE the poor girl! Christina Aguliara's Mom has said she spent a lot of time with that poor girl since her parents couldn't make it to some thing or another (she never said it demeaningly or nothing btw, just kind of factual, they were freinds type thing). I think the fact that JT and CA parents were VERY involved in their lives until they were older made a HUGE difference in how they have turned out compared to her! Very sad!

Beth said...

You have so much to be thankful for...it's so good to feel that way, and to look at the good things in your life.

"I yu you"..that is too cute!

Mackenzie1975 said...

Frannie.
I think you are so wise.
I have tried recently to be grateful for just about everything. I even am grateful when things go wrong and I force myself to thank that person or situation because there is always SOMETHING I take away from it...something to be grateful for.
I am really glad God brought us to each other's blog!!

Slackermommy said...

Since before my kids could talk I have said out loud the things I'm grateful for. Simple things like "I'm so grateful the sun is shining today" or "I'm so grateful to have you and your daddy". Now my older kids throw in random "I'm grateful for's" every now and then. That's when you feel like you're doing a good job teaching them to be grateful.

TSS said...

That thing looks like an alien baby incubator.

Frannie Farmer said...

T ... Still thinking about your rant. Whew!
Beth .. she can get me every time w/the 'I yu you' .. and she knows it :O)
Mack ... I am glad too - and you are a wise gal yourself .. hope you are well.
Slacker .. it does make a HUGE difference to say it out loud. Even if it feels forced at first .. if you say it enough you WILL believe it.
TSS .. I assume you're talking about the washer .. it does look a little odd, doesn't it. But man - think of the LOADS it will do!!!!